Standing on the Promises

I've seen dreams that move the mountains, Hope that doesn't ever end, even when the sky is falling. I've seen miracles just happen, silent prayers get answered, Broken hearts become brand new, that's what faith can do.

Last night the kids were just playing in the bedroom and I heard them singing this song; and it warmed my heart beyond words. Which has prompted me to put things into words. I usually do not use this blog to put things that are "too personal" out there. It is the internet for all to read you know! But I have been led to share. Even if you think it's weird, psycho, a little crazy, whatever - I no longer have the same fear of man. The personal tragedy and trauma that my family is going through has been the most difficult, and yet rewarding, trial I've ever faced. Many people ask me, how are you? How do you do it? Why do you do it? How can we help you? And I want to answer those questions. I am ok...as ok as I can be. And I am ok, because I am clinging tightly to my only hope and strength - the promises of God. God has brought us on this journey and as terrible as it is, I can see His goodness all over it. I look back to where I was a year ago, 6 months ago, even 3 months ago - and I never want to go back there. I would have this happen to me all over again, to get to where God has brought me before him, a broken sinner, in desperate need for a savior - this is worth it. Don't get me wrong, I hate this situation but I can't deny that God is using it for His glory! The evil one and sin are rampant in this world. I am a personal witness to the destruction it can bring to a loved one's life. But because Christ lives in me - I will prevail - because God will prevail. He will never leave me, and never give me more than I can handle. He's always in control, always watching and is ALWAYS victorious. With Him I will not fear, doubt, despair, falter or fail. (James MacDonald's Walk in the Word, Always True series has been a true blessing to me!) I am not strong - on my own I am a weak, blubbering mess. But when I am weak, then I am strong. So I am not doing it - God is doing it. To Him be the glory.

The love and support that I have received has humbled me beyond anything I could imagine. Christ's love is poured out on me daily. The encouraging cards and words, hugs, listening ears, shoulders to cry on, prayers, gift cards, gifts of money, meals provided, loving on my kids, free babysitters, Christmas presents , and so much more - I thank God for every one of those gifts. From family and best of friends to people I've never even met - every person is a blessing from God. I am only just beginning to understand how deep the love of Christ for me! Thank you to every one of you. May God bless you beyond the blessing you have been to me.

Why do I do it? Because God has saved me and filled me with a sacrificial, Christlike love - that can only come from Him - for those that have hurt me. I am committed to following God's will and plan for my life, wherever that might lead me. I know where my heart will always stand - what my forever choices will be. Where my love will always be. I do it because I will be ok, God is what I need, and I will never lose Him and I will always have my faith. How can you help me? Pray, Pray and Pray! I believe this is a spiritual battle that is beyond anything that can be done here on earth. Pray for me, pray for my children, pray for my husband. Pray that God's will be done and all glory be given to Him! And in the meantime, stand on the promises of God and join my kids and I as you sing your heart out...

I've seen dreams that move the mountains, hope that doesn't ever end, even when the sky is falling. I've seen miracles just happen, silent prayers get answered; broken hearts become brand new, that's what faith can do. ~ What Faith Can do by Kutless